Wednesday, 28 January 2015

At a loss.

You know what life is like, sometimes you just seem to see life differently to everyone else. I have no idea how nurses and HCAs cope with the tricky patients they must get sometimes. I certainly can't cope with Mike. His nausea / sickness is as bad if not worse and now EVERYTHING I do causes an outburst of temper. I can't drink coffee or tea the smell is abhorrent. Toast, no way. He can't eat or drink anything other than water and it seems I'm not meant to either. 

The smell of the washing powder on the sheets and his clothes, the toilet cleaner needed under the circumstances, the shampoo I used this morning. Don't even think of using even the most delicate of fragranced deodorant. The dish washing sent him into a frenzy of rage. 

Don't ask if he wants anything or make the mistake of not offering. Can you see where I am going with this. 

Don't go out for more than 15 minutes in case he needs something. Don't mention hospital (the GP suggested that on the phone yesterday.)

I'm sure some of you will try to be helpful, but short of popping over here to help there really isn't anything you can do. I'm so upset and so alone. I can hardly ask my kids to pop round while he is in this mood and I have no other friends or family. 

Monday, 26 January 2015

Big fat zero.

Hello again. I bet you are all shocked to see me blogging again so soon. Unfortunately I haven't come up with anything to inspire. 

It was Mike's birthday yesterday, one of those "special" ones that end in '0'. He hasn't been feeling too good recently, some sort of virus he thinks that has knocked him off his feet for a couple of weeks with a bad chest, nausea and zero energy. He couldn't eat his birthday cake or enjoy a small beer. I think we'll have to postpone the celebrations until he is feeling better.  

Thursday, 22 January 2015

Bad Lorna!

Well it has been a month since I blogged. Christmas is a far off memory and I didn't even wish you all a Happy New Year! 

Still I thought I would share with you all the photos of Toni and her gift. 

Left me have a taste.

Nose licking good.

Death shake!!!

I didn't hurt her.

Another quick taste.

A better death shake!!!!


Oh dear.

Sorry mommy. 
The tennis ball lasted about 2 minutes and is now in the bin, the rabbit was re-stuffed and sewn and is now happily residing in Toni's toy bag. 

I'm currently struggling with my life as the "designated take care of people" person whilst simultaneously missing my brood of children. Not enough different voices in the house. 

I really must try and blog on a more regular basis. May be someone could suggest a theme.

Monday, 22 December 2014

Oops I did it again!

I need to apologise to any of my readers out there that took my last post to mean that Mike had been given a death sentence. I was merely expressing my thoughts, however Mike sees things very differently and has spent the whole weekend and this morning telling me how wrong I was to blog in no uncertain terms. 

I hope you can all forgive me, he certainly won't.

Thursday, 18 December 2014

Merry Christmas!

With only a week to go I thought I would take the opportunity (while having a coffee break from the endless pre-Christmas cleaning) to wish all our blog readers a very happy, peaceful and healthy Christmas (I hope to do the New Year thing nearer the time).

Mike is okay at the moment. Very lethargic and about as much use as a chocolate teaspoon by afternoon. That said, until Dr S.B. says otherwise, Mike is still officially in remission. That may change on Monday. 

I've been busy filling my evenings with knitted projects, some of which (actually all of which) form part of Christmas presents. Money is tighter than ever and as such there is virtually nothing to spend.

So if you'll indulge me, I will share some photos with you all.

This project titled "Mittens for Kittens" (to hide its true purpose from prying offspring) seemed to take forever and at one stage I doubted it would be finished in time. 

Toni models a pair.

Three of the chosen colours
By the time I had knitted 12 pairs though I had sped up considerably and finished just in time for December 1st. Each of the mittens was filled with a special treat and the Advent calendar was given to my middle daughter who works so hard doing long shifts that can start at 5:30 a.m. or finish at 11:30 p.m. Sometimes you just need chocolate!

The finished Advent line.

I have already completed the knitting for a second calendar, no doubt the other 4 are going to say "where's mine?"

Once the Advent calendar was done I finished off the project I had started in October, a Christmas stocking for my granddaughter. 

Filled with a couple of small gifts and two friends who decided they didn't like being wrapped up!

It was then onto Toni's gift.
Pink Rabbit!
Inside the tummy is a squeaky tennis ball that will send her wild on Christmas day. The rabbit is currently residing in my cup cupboard in the kitchen as it seems to be the only place she can't sniff out!

So presents are made. The tree is decorated complete with the infamous "Monty" the penguin (who I just happened to have living in my Christmas decoration box for the last 20 years).
"I wonder if I will get a new friend?"
I've made my Christmas biscuits.


Orange and cranberry shortbread thins
So all that remains is to say:

Merry Christmas everyone!

Friday, 17 October 2014

What a week!

Panic not, the above vehicle does not contain Mike. He is fit and well. It does however contain me! This rather special taxi turned up last Saturday morning to whisk me off to A & E as I had been getting a tad overheated since Thursday evening culminating in the all time high of 40 C, (that's 104 F for those who use old money or who live elsewhere in the world) when Mike took my temperature Saturday morning.  I can report that I am now much better, the heavy duty antibiotics have done their thing, although I still haven't much energy. 

The kali cardi is finished. You will probably spot the upcycled buttons for one of Mike's old shirts. The resulting item feels lovely. 

Mike had a hospital appointment Monday. His Hb is now 12.8 and the pp is still hovering around 5, so nothing is planned just yet. Next appointment is December.

Did you know Christmas is now less than 10 weeks away?!? I do so festive plans are now under way.

A very subtle snowflake I think you'll agree!

Friday, 19 September 2014

Nostalgia anyone?

I know it has been ages. I don't even know where the last few months have gone. We have been busy with one thing and another. We had one of Mike's oldest friends come to stay for a couple of weeks at the end of July while he was waiting to move into his flat. We helped my middle daughter move out, so now the nest is empty, along with a small piece of my heart. 

Those of you who are pals on FB will know I have been filling my time with baking and a small amount of knitting. The baking has mostly ended up in the bin as I have yet to get out of the habit of making muffins for five children when there is only two adults and one of those hasn't got a sweet tooth. I must have put on a stone. 

As for the knitting, well suddenly Myeloma UK announced on their FB page that they had run out of Buddies to sell and that they had got the pattern should anyone wish to knit some for them.

The Buddy family

So far I have three made, with another two awaiting stuffing. 

In true Lorna and Micky style, the whole process was not without the usual c*** ups. So keen was I to make a start that I ordered 10 balls of the prescribed colour and type on the usual auction site, only to find that I had ordered chunky by mistake. This resulted in the following being made by Mike:

Dexy Dan and friend
The above photo is actually Dexy Dan II as the first DD was sent to Wanda and Dan. Wanda took him to do a skydive for Myeloma UK, you can find her just giving page here.

Wanda and Dan are a wonderful couple who had to firstly cancel their wedding as Dan was in hospital, only to rearrange it and it took place in hospital at the end of August. Dan is at home now, I think his treatment is now purely palliative. Yet Dan is still raising funds for Myeloma UK and yesterday Wanda started another Just Giving page for Dan's Mamba for Myeloma. This is Wanda's FB post:

There is an awful sense of deja vu about it all. 

Apart from the Buddies I have started to knit a little something else. Whilst trying to find the wool for my production line I was seduced by a rainbow crystal kali.

Actually it wasn't actually kali as I never could stand the stuff, what I actually bought was this:

So I am knitting a kali cardi. 

I wasn't sure at first, but now I think it is perfect for a little girl's Christmas present. 

The final piece of nostalgia is the news that Mike's HB has dropped from 15.2 to 13.7 in a month. There is no denying the trend now, that sort of drop is simply not normal for Mike.