Tuesday, 27 October 2015

Too much to handle.

I don't know what happened but I want my life back. The life I had before kidney failure came along and spoilt things. Five days a week are spent doing home dialysis. Five days of me doing my best and Mike desperately trying to let me. It is difficult trusting an untrained person with your life.
I want my life back. I want Mike's life back. We don't have a life anymore.
Tonight Mike is ill, a simple virus. It's the straw that has broken this camel's back.

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  1. Oh, Lorna, I am so sorry. I recall what the burnout of care giving was like , how guilty and exhausted and sad and mad and lonely and a thousand and one other things that just sucked at times. Looking back I wish I would have asked for some help and done at least one nice thing for myself each day. I know - easier said then done. Sending you lots of warm hugs and hope for getting through one day at a time. love, karen

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  2. Lorna, I know you know caregiver burnout if a very real thing. Are you ever able to get a break? Not only for you but for Mike as well. It is normal that a couple needs a break from each other. I know it is easier said than done.
    Hoping you both get a break.

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  3. Hey girl - hang on in there. Thinking of you both :)
    I hope this is fixable.

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